Friday, January 02, 2009

the time of inspiration and optimism

if there were ever a time for me to be overly optimistic, hopeful, excited, and just plain happy, it's now. and oh, I am. 2009! a new year! it's time to start a new chapter in my life. there are so many blank pages to be filled, and I'm looking forward to that. this year will be hard, painful, chaotic... maybe kinda scary. but it will be amazingly fun, and just plain aweshum. God, this is YOUR year. OUR year. I know now that you really will never leave me or forsake me or forget me or leave me alone or drop me... or any of the above. I know you're always with me, holding my fragile heart in your hands and singing over me. and I thank you so much for that. Go with me this year, i know you will, and give me the opportunity to really learn to love. I am so thankful for all these amazing friends and family you've placed here to surround me and show me your love when it feels like all is lost. so from here on out, I'm dedicated to you. I am determined to be absolutely and entirely for YOU and You alone. to wholeheartedly seek you. Give me courage and wisdom in this chapter of my life and help me to pass on my understanding to others. I am open for you to flow through. My heart's all yours, you know that. Do something amazing in me. Shine your light and let the whole world see that I'm YOURS. I keep my palms open to your will.
As you wish.

the loss

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