song i wrote

victorious
lyrics and music by me

You're telling me to turn around,
to jump and trust You to be there
it's hard to get off the ground,
to push myself into the air
without a muscle underneath me
i need Your strong arm to help me

but i know i can do it
You told me i could
You wouldn't let me do it
if you didn't know i would.

when i need a little lift
or even if i'm flyin high
the thing keepin me there's Your Gift
the Gift that i can't let die
Your Love livin in me
Your Grace flowin through me

and i know i can do this
you told me i would
i would never try to do this
if you hadn't said i could

if all i see is the mountain
and the fog just seems too thick
then come be my Eternal Fountain
full of water that heals the sick
You can heal me
and bring Your life back to me

and we know i can do it
i told myself i would
You'd never put me through it
if You didn't know i could

i'm gonna make it when i try
push past all that's in my way
never let Your Spirit die,
it keeps me goin through th day
Your hand upholds me
Your breath supports me

this time i really did it
just like You said i would
cuz i believed you'd help me do it
when i never thought i could.

sometimes you don't realize something has happened until it's described

Remember Surrender by Sara Groves

Remember surrender
Remember the rest
Remember that weight lifting off of your chest
And realizing that it's not up to you and it never was

Remember surrender
Remember relief
Remember how tears rolled down both of your cheeks
As the warmth of a heavenly father came closing in

I want to do that again
Why can't I live there
And make my home In sweet surrender
I want to do so much more than remember

Remember surrender
Remember peace
Remember how soundly you fell fast asleep
In the face of your troubles your future
still shone like the morning sun

Remember surrender
Remember that sound
Of all of those voices dying down
But one who speaks clearly of helping
and healing you deep within
I want to do that again

Why can't I live there
And make my home
In sweet surrender
I want to do so much more than remember
Remember
Oh surrender

well, here I am again. my life is going so fast I can hardly keep up with it, but I am having a blast! the gymnastics meet was awesome saturday, our team won 1st, and i got my first 1st place ever. i got it on beam. i also got 2nd on floor, 5th on bar, and 6th on vault. so i actually had a really awesome day saturday. and yesterday *smiles* yesterday was awesome. of course, sundays are always awesome (going to church, sunday school, choir, and youth group ALL in ONE DAY?! of COURSE it would be AWESOME!). but yesterday was just... wow... i had an awesome weekend.

thanksgiving?

last night was hard on me. mom and dad were out of town (they came back today). i went to books-a-million with my big bro last night and met my best friend there... she was really quiet, which is REALLY unlike her... but she gave me a "note" about all this stuff that's happening to her... i nearly cried. i knew there was stuff she wasn't telling me (not surprising), but i had no clue it was that bad. if yall (which is like NO ONE, but still...) could be praying for her that'd be awesome. she needs all the intercession she can get.

well happy thanksgiving!!!! hope you all have a wonderful day, and don't forget to thank God for all His wonderful blessings!!!!

(PS- lizzie, i luvs ya girl. know that I'm praying for you, and I'm not mad, just terribly freaked.)

my best friend

so much is happening... my life seems like a whirlwind all of a sudden. it's like i'm caught in the middle of a tornado. i can see all this stuff whirling around me, but I don't really GET it, ya know? it seems like my 2 closest friendships are going down the drain all the sudden. well, 2 closest except for God. :D He's always there for me, and he never changes like all my earthly friends do. He never makes me want to hang up on him or yell at him or grab him by the shoulders, and, shaking him, say "WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR LIFE?!?!?!". he's more than that. he's the best thing that ever happened to me. when i hang up on someone or get hung up on, i know he's always right next to me, ready to give me a shoulder to cry on. when guys are wimps and won't even talk to you, when your best friend since 5th grade dates an athieist, when your next-best friend won't tell you everything any more... Jesus is there, crying with you. because when we hurt, He hurts. he loves me that much. when i get carried away by the things of this world, torn into shreds, and left out to dry... there he is, shielding you, healing you, and loving you just the same as always. cause that's just how awesome he is.

is it all I want?

so I was watching the "everything" skit sunday (they did it at church) and one line of the songs says "cuz You're all i want!" and i got to thinking... is He really all I want?? is that what my life is revolving around? or is it friends? school? piano? gymnastics? boys? family? music? what?????

God, you see my heart. you know what i love most. help me to make that YOU. I want YOU to be ALL i need and want.