prom!!!

tonight was prom.
homeschool prom. I'd been "dreaming" about it ever since I found out about it in August, only to find out in March that 1- I didn't have enough guts to ask a guy (let alone the guy I'd want to ask), and 2- Lauren and Jordan were going, and they both had dates (supposedly).
So, I backed out, freaked out, and got all emo. I really wanted to go, but like I said, there was NO way you could have gotten me to ask a guy to "escort" me. So i had planned to have a crash night with PT, go to starbucks, cry a little, talk a lot, and think about all those rocks i could (and should) have thrown at some boys. But about a week or so ago, I found out Jordan didn't have a date after all, so i was gonna be her date. Which, at first, i REALLY didn't want to go. I thought it would end up bombing and be the worst night of my life.
but it wasn't!
other than being totally homeschoolerish, it was pretty fun. I didn't even dance (except when they played the cha-cha slide! XD), but we had fun hanging out, talking, and (most of all), making fun all of those that couldn't dance, yet still attempted it.
I wore the dress my grandmother wore in my parents' wedding. After shopping for 2 full days, I decided to use the one I had. At first I was really unsure of how it would work out.
But Lauren, Jordan, and I spent the whole day getting ready. We got up around 9 this morning, went out to get some breakfast, dropped by the florist (to get the corsage), and wally world (to get supplies to make mine and lauren' corsages). We took time getting showers, doing our nails, hair, and make-up.. then finally, the long-awaited PROM DRESSES.
we got dressed, and, even then, as we were leaving (and even while we were at supper), I was very self-conscious (EVERYONE was staring at us in Outback). I felt stupid, and out-of date (the dress i was wearing is from the 80s!), and just weird. After the prom, we dropped by a local coffee shop, and as we were walking out, a man stopped me and said, "ma'am, I just wanted to say that that is a classical and beautiful dress." I thanked him as we left... But his one small comment completely changed my outlook on the entire night. I was thinking on the way home, and even though tonight was not the dream come true I had originally hoped it would be, it was fun, and if nothing more, it made me feel beautiful for a night.